In fact, some of you know that I sank pretty darn low at some point.
The good news is that I am technically better, I am no longer on the brink of death. I have to admit that this blog, even though I have been somewhat quiet in the last little while has been partially responsible for my imporving.
An audience, no matter how small can make a difference, no matter what my occupational therapist was telling me.
The bad news is that I seem to have plateaued in my recovery. Furthermore, my symptoms seem to have morphed into a new animal, but still depression.
On one hand I have become terribly confused and lost. It's like my brain has taken a vacation and forgot to come back. This may be a side effect of my medications. I cannot focus and concentrate and I struggle to do what used to be so easy and simple.
On the other hand I have lost interest in so many things.
Former things that brought me joy, even small joy bring me nothing but boredom.
Things like:
- reading
- playing games online
- doing crossword puzzles
- the satisfaction of a clean house (or something like it, my house is never clean)
- cooking
- baking
- taking a walk
- drawing
- crafting
- taking a drive
- shopping
- blogging
- etc.
Anyone have any suggestions or advice on how I can gain pleasure again?
Thanks for reading.
My suggestion is to look at beautiful things. Things YOU find beautiful. That way, when you see those things in your day-to-day life, it may bring you pleasure.
ReplyDeleteEx. I love nature, insects especially-I am always fascinated by them! So when I "bump into" a caterpillar, see a spider or even just worm, it brings me pleasure. I like to look at them and wonder how they "work" and am amazed at their creation - their beauty.
I'm actually going through something similar to this. I've been so bored and it's with things I use to escape to when I was bored.
ReplyDeleteI love writing but lately I feel like I have to literally push myself to finish what I start. I feel terrible doing that because I still feel my writing is important but I feel I'm too bored to even life my pen. Sigh